Category Archives: Perfectionism

The “crap” journal

For the past few months, I’ve been waging my own private war against resistance, getting up early to spend some time each day writing.  This time has become sacred to me, for may different reasons, but I’m sorry to say … Continue reading

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Emerging Victorious

Years ago, I got caught up in the doctrine of “do not handle, do not taste, do not touch” (which Paul warns against in Colossians 2:21 and I wrote more about HERE.)  Several things have contributed to my slow emergence … Continue reading

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The Minotaur

Several weeks ago, I had a dream in which a man in shadows forced his hand over my mouth, slammed shut the door through which I was trying to exit and shouted in a booming, terrifying voice: “You’re WRONG!” I … Continue reading

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“A” is for…

I draw the blade across my wrist, opening the cut again. I want it to be deep, the scarring permanent. I add more lines. The first had been a reminder. The next two would be an insignia. I physically carve … Continue reading

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Revolution

I’ve mentioned before that I struggle with social anxiety (all kinds of anxiety, really!)  In counseling, I’ve been learning that this anxiety leads me to try to figure out ways to control and manipulate the world around me in order … Continue reading

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Thursday’s Thoughts – Anne Lamott On Writing

“One of the few things I know about writing is this: spend it all, shoot it, play it, lose it, all, right away, every time. Do not hoard what seems good for a later place in the book, or for … Continue reading

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Faith Unraveled

. I thought salvation [meant] having the right opinions about God and that fighting the good fight of faith [required] defending those opinions at all costs.  I was a fundamentalist because my security and self-worth and sense of purpose in … Continue reading

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