Category Archives: Perfectionism

The Minotaur

Posted on December 4, 2016 by Rina

Several weeks ago, I had a dream in which a man in shadows forced his hand over my mouth, slammed shut the door through which I was trying to exit and shouted in a booming, terrifying voice: “You’re WRONG!” I … Continue reading →

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“A” is for…

Posted on November 4, 2016 by Rina

I draw the blade across my wrist, opening the cut again. I want it to be deep, the scarring permanent. I add more lines. The first had been a reminder. The next two would be an insignia. I physically carve … Continue reading →

Posted in Anxiety, Criticism, Friendship, Marriage, Perfectionism, PERSONAL, Victory Journal | 4 Comments

Revolution

Posted on October 26, 2016 by Rina

I’ve mentioned before that I struggle with social anxiety (all kinds of anxiety, really!)  In counseling, I’ve been learning that this anxiety leads me to try to figure out ways to control and manipulate the world around me in order … Continue reading →

Posted in Anxiety, Contentment, Criticism, Daybook, Fear, Inspirational, Perfectionism, PERSONAL, Victory Journal | 6 Comments

Thursday’s Thoughts – Anne Lamott On Writing

Posted on October 13, 2016 by Rina

“One of the few things I know about writing is this: spend it all, shoot it, play it, lose it, all, right away, every time. Do not hoard what seems good for a later place in the book, or for … Continue reading →

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Faith Unraveled

Posted on October 11, 2016 by Rina

. I thought salvation [meant] having the right opinions about God and that fighting the good fight of faith [required] defending those opinions at all costs.  I was a fundamentalist because my security and self-worth and sense of purpose in … Continue reading →

Posted in Consecration, Daybook, Evangelism, Faith, Love, Perfectionism, PERSONAL, Salvation, Victory Journal | 6 Comments

Breaking Bad

Posted on October 2, 2016 by Rina

My friends like to tell one another that I am not really a born again Christian. They think of me more along the lines of that old Jonathan Miller routine: “I’m not really a Jew- I’m Jew-ish.” They think I … Continue reading →

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You’re never who you used to be

Posted on October 27, 2015 by Rina

My dad called me yesterday, after reading some of my recent posts.  It’s a funny thing, blogging, because so much of what I write here is intensely personal but at the same time I know that my friends and family … Continue reading →

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